there comes a time when nothing matters anymore, then you wake up tomorrow and wonder where all that moodiness came from. it's a tiring cycle i get into everyday of the school term but how come i seem to have it all the time and my friends are normal?

it'd be nice to be normal once. act my age, stop minding every move, just be high and shallow and stupid so that none of those sadness will touch me cos i'd be too dumb to recognise it.









Baby,top. || 11:50 PM

http://www.sealthedeal2009.org/the-climate-petition

Baby,top. || 12:03 AM

I've just sent out that letter, let's hope it brings joy, safety, comfort and hope to thousands of kids out there. It must.
Baby,top. || 8:51 PM

new moon was just a big joke.

the largest problem about the whole franchise are the 2 leads. i mean, how did they choose the leads? if they were some others, the whole show would have been passable, because the effects and setting were pretty cool but the movie just didn't flow. it slowed at all the wrong parts, giving emphasis to the most mundane things, and the noisy and breathy kissing didn't work, really. even when they confessed they're undying love for each other, they looked like they were spitting, and the faces of the 2 leads were the exact same mask for the whole movie.

TEAM JACOB. for the reason that jacob can act and edward can't.
Baby,top. || 9:49 PM

Freedom of speech is not necessarily a given right, even if many of us think it should be. Most of the time you need to use your brains before you speak right? Freedom of speech is meaningless if you spurt nonsense and expect people to follow, because the right to say what you believe in should be used positively and meaningfully. Even if you speak freely but sensibly, presenting various viewpoints and not your own biased opinion, you think anyone will blame you? I hate it when people talk shit in class and claim scream "freedom of speech" when reprimanded.
Baby,top. || 9:34 AM

Just met up with pro people yesterday. It really feels good to work with adults like them. They give you the chance to try. In school, there was literally, no space for ANYTHING. No space to try, no space to succeed, no space to fail, no space to learn, and you wonder why we turn out like this, unable to do anything. Teachers presided over our every movement and decision, and if they didn't like something, we couldn't say no to them, and a student-led project just loses it's whole purpose and the name should be changed to teachers-decide-all-and-you-lousy-students-just-execute. I'm really very happy to be out of that stifling place and I feel no sense of loss whatsoever, seriously. Now I can try things. I can write my own proposals, define what I want to do which will affect others, learn and fail and learn again but the point is that I can do things. Yesterday I was allowed to emcee a ceremony without any prior preparation and it turns out better because I have stage fright and the lack of time didn't let me think about my fears. Last week I was allowed to do some work without the teachers pinpointing every step I take and I really learnt a lot.

This is why I don't want the people I know to come, especially those who want more than just to mug. I mean, you can mug anywhere, but you can definitely do more somewhere else.





Baby,top. || 8:53 AM

This week has been so busy, I really don't know where my time went. There was never a need to make a To-Do lost; now I know. I can't proceed with my list cos I don't have any spare time for that D: The week started with a trip to Malaysia to run some errands and another late night at MPS, then a Tuesday spent running errands, going to school and doing some seriously rushed research, which continued for the rest of the week on top of going to school everyday and then I rushed out a proposal while sleeping the number of hours I slept during school terms. Wait...so WHERE did the time go? I really can't tell. Each day rushes by so quickly I don't feel like I had a chance to live it and it's already gone. Please, time, please slow down, I really have a lot to do before JC starts, please!

I. need. time. Even more so when now I feel like I have to be more responsible and I can't just bluff everything off like we could in school. So many promises, so little time.







Baby,top. || 8:32 AM

joyce.

tomorrow's just another day
another way to spend my day
all by myself;